Trapped

Lately I've been wondering whether or not I have DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder)
As i introspect, I notice how much when forced into social situations, I always act extra.
I act extra lively, extra talkative, extra.. interesting.
Simultaneously, I portray in my mind another part of me, trapped.. 
seemingly in a sunken place, this other part of me witnesses the lively me.. emotionless.

I only recently started asking myself that.
A huge part of me, says it isn't DID, rather just a reaction I've created to face social situations.

Only, this lively person is out 80% of the time.. sometimes even 90% of the time, so much so that most people can't tell that i really am an introvert.
So much so that I no longer know which is real.

What's Next?

I've been wondering what's next a lot more often lately.

Needless to say, I stopped illustrating abruptly.
I foresaw it happening. I tend to find excuses not to draw
It starts out slowly, then surely more permanently I stop drawing all together for a specific project.

Funny enough, it is for this reason that I belieev Fashion was made for me.
I get bored from projects so easily, and as easily as a finger snap, I start working on other projects that I will eventually also get bored from.

Fashion Changes every season and as such you are to come up with new designs every 3 months,
or you'll be forgotten as fast as a blink.

What's next?

FART !

 

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